1 Nobody cares about our feelings, thoughts, or worries
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| (Link to BPD website) |
2 Nobody wants to hear about our feelings, thoughts, or worries
3 People think our feelings, thoughts, and worries are irrational, regardless
4 We constantly get gaslighted whenever we have a negative feeling, thought, or worry.
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| (Link to article on Gaslighting) |
5 People just think we're "crazy", that we're not good, and that we're incapable of change.
6 People think we are manipulative, game-playing liars who will never change or get better.
7 Nobody understands BPD unless you have it. They are just incapable of understanding it without having lived with it.
8 We are not "allowed" to have any negative feelings, thoughts, or worries like "average" people are.
9 If we do get up the courage to express any negative emotion or thought, we are immediately dismissed and gaslighted.
10 When we are repeatedly dismissed and gaslighted, we tend to shut down and become fearful of the repeated behavior if we speak up again.
11 We suffer, alone, lonely, in pain, and in despair, from bottling up our emotions, feelings, thoughts, and worries, yet we feel anxiety at even the thought of expressing them because then we will be forced to feel dismissed and rejected from the gaslighting we endure.
12 Nobody cares about us.
13 Nobody loves us.
14 We are worthless.
15 We will never be truly loved.
16 Our feelings do not matter.
17 We don't matter.
18 We can never win.
19 We can never be truly happy.
20 We are doomed to suffer alone.
21 We are not "allowed" to have even the feelings the "average" person has.
22 We are not allowed to have any negative feelings at all.
23 Everybody confirms our worthlessness by: dismissing our feelings, thoughts, and worries (all of them, even valid ones), gaslighting us whenever we worry or need assurance, calling us crazy, saying our brains are distorted, saying that "normal" people are better than us, saying their lives are better when we're not around, comparing us to other people they've been with, people they could be with, threatening to do to us the things we fear the most, saying we are not allowed to talk about our feelings, thoughts, or worries, being told to shut up and keep it to ourselves, being told we are wasting their time, being told we are incapable of change, being told we are not believed about anything, being told we are a bother, being told we are manipulative, being told that 'nobody wants to be with someone who has Borderline, etc.'
24 We are told everything is our fault.
25 It is hopeless.
26 Maybe we are just "crazy."
27 Maybe we are just stupid.
28 People think we're too stupid to understand our need to change, never knowing that we want that more than anything.
29 That we don't mean anything, we're not special, and we will never make a difference in this world.
30 People tell us that we will never change or even improve at all.
31 We will get hurt if we act vulnerable.
32 People will take advantage of us and our insecurities and vulnerabilities.
33 The "average" person is "allowed" to feel hurt, jealous, etc., but we are NOT.
34 People tell us that our thoughts and feelings are irrational.
35 When people tell us "it's just your Borderline and has nothing to do with me", it makes us feel dismissed, gaslighted, and like we're not allowed to have feelings, thoughts, or worries.
36 We feel like it's a mistake to talk about our feelings.
37 We get gaslighted to the point of completely shutting down, bottling everything up, and ending up being lonely, feeling alone, rejected, in pain, in despair, destined to suffer alone forever.
38 We lose no matter what we do or how hard we try.
39 We get no credit for effort of any kind or progress of any kind.
40 If we speak up about our feelings, thoughts, or worries, we are gaslighted to the point of never wanting to speak again.
41 If we keep quiet and bottle it up, we suffer, lonely, alone, and in despair.
42 We simply want to end our suffering, and we will try anything to feel better.
43 We don't want to die, we just want our suffering to end.
44 We are never heard.
45 We suffer constantly, lonely, alone, in pain, and in despair.
46 We are fucked, doomed to either continuing to suffer or to end our pain a different way.
47 Everybody hates us.
48 We suffer constantly/
49 We're a burden to everyone.
50 Nobody will ever truly love us.
51 We deserve to suffer.
52 We don't deserve love.
53 We're a burden and not easy to deal with, but, when we love someone, we love with all of our heart, so much more than anyone could imagine, and that scares us out of our minds because we then fear getting rejected and abandoned by the person we love so much, and we know that we will get abandoned by them, and we fear it so much, but we know that everyone abandons us, we're used to it, but I is still painful and it still hurts us, cuts us deep every time, no matter how many times it's happened before.
54 Either we suffer alone, lonely, in pain, and in despair, or we suffer while speaking up, and then getting gaslighted and villianized, told we're "crazy", and dismissed, ending up feeling alone, lonely, in pain, and in despair. We are in a lose/lose situation.
55 It makes us so sad that we will never truly be loved.
56 It hurts us that we will never know what true love is, that we will never experience unconditional love, and that we will never know what it feels like to be truly cared about.
57 People tell us "I MIGHT stay with you IF you change" and then add "but I don't believe you ever will." That is the stinger right there. We want to change so bad this thing that is happening to us, nobody even knows how bad we want to change, but yet nobody ever believes that we can or will change, nobody has any faith in us, we need to know somebody is behind us, cheering us on. But nobody is, nobody ever will be.
58 We don't want to live like this, with constant fear and anxiety, and since we can't change, like everybody says, we are doomed.
59 We don't deserve good things.
60 We deserve to suffer.
61 We don't deserve to be loved.
62 It is NOT OUR FAULT that we are like this. But nobody cares about that fact, we still get blamed for everything.
7 Nobody understands BPD unless you have it. They are just incapable of understanding it without having lived with it. 
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